Here's what I do know. Events happen, some leave a stronger imprint than others.
I think some people are given to you at the exact moment you need them. JL, KC, NL, JJ, MW, I am happy to have met you ages ago, and the support and love you have always provided me is astounding. I would say undeserving, however that's what friends are for. MP, DH, T, you are my moment people. Just when I needed someone with your personality, style and outlook you 'pounced' into my life and gave me what I needed.
I am thankful to each and all of you. And to many others I have most likely forgot to list. If I should be grateful for something which has happened to me during the last few rough months, moments, days and nights, it is for your understanding, embraces, phone calls, quiet moments, and the ability to just put up with me.
While these few days have been much happier then some others as of late, I can feel my past lurking beneath it all...waiting. I am completely aware I cannot outrun it now, but a few days of reprieve has possibly been what I required to remind me. Remind me of everything you've all done for me, and that I have the strength and will to face this.
I was approaching a very dark time, without a doubt the worst I can recall. I hope to never go back there. Maybe 2010 is my year. Maybe not. But in case I fail to tell you all enough:
Thank you, I love you, and you have NO idea how much I appreciate you all.
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