I am pretty sure I will soon let someone down. I am sure I will hurt someone someday. I know others pain has nothing to do with me and I can do little about it. But I am back to wanting to help others and not wanting to hurt others.
I questioned if I was becoming an alcoholic a while ago. I know I am not. However I am concerned about another friend, I see the pain she is causing those who love her. I don't think she knows what she's doing yet. I wish her family strength.
I do not want to put the same on my family, though together they have the strength to help me with this. They deserve...anything but knowing. At least until I am over it so they don't have to hurt with me.
Tonight, or tomorrow, I will tell someone else who matters to me. I wonder if he'll stick around, I cannot blame him if he doesn't want to.
We all have a past. Is mine worse, same or different off? Different, few people deserve to say theirs' was worse. We are all entitled to our pain, our past.
I wish her family strength. I wish you all self-forgiveness.
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